Retirement from Golden Eagle/Liberty..

This is weird. Everytime I go to Costco, I run into someone I used to work with at Golden Eagle/ Liberty Mutual and they pretend not to know who I am. I worked there for almost 20 years, and I was like really popular. Not in a snobby way, but everyone knew who I was. I was everyone's friend. From the Claim's Examiner's, the Accounting Department and tht I e mailroom too. I loved all of my friends. They were the greatest. I have some of them on my facebook friends still. I wish I was still there. I really do.But to think that I can't remember what you look like, Stuart N. and it was Kim j., or another claims manager I ran into last month is an insult; please. Just because I'm sitting on my ass most of the time doesn't mean I can't remember what people looked like. I know people want me out of this house, but give me a job so I can get some cash together to get a place. Seriously, do they think I have any money? I have about $20. Maybe. What's that gonna get me? Not even a tank of gas. And I like Sabre Springs. So really I'm looking up a dead horses ass. Last time I checked my funds I get a whopping $400 a month from my retirement., where would I spend it first? Hum....I could buy that tank of gas, and maybe get the dog her medicine and mine, go to the neuro, then what's left, to the movies, get some popcorn, settle in, couple packs of gum, and go home, and I'm out of cash for the month. That's called broke. How do people live on $400? That's why people panhandle. And I have two degrees, wasted degrees. A bachelor's and a Masters. What a waste of time. No one will hire me, and I just wasted my time, because they said it was guaranteed to get me a job. Right....Not ONE JOB!!! NOT ONE!!!! I've been rotting in this house, for ten years. doing the Cinderella bit, and I'm not good at it. I  resent it. And I get told how nice they are to me. That's why I beg anyone PLEASE GIVE ME A JOB, I will work my ass off for you. Just let me leave this place. The day is coming, and you will regret it.

The Titanic-the exhibit, 2012-May 6

Today went to museum that was having the viewing of the Titanic. It will be in San Diego until  the end September, and I highly recommend it. I was not expecting to be as emotional as I was today just viewing what was on display at a "museum". But what was there was so much more than a few plates. What was there represented "lives". You could feel these people's souls seep through the walls of the images etched onto the walls. People marched through there basically as silent observers, only to stop and read the walls. If you paid a few extra dollars, you received the audio version of the tour, I liked that. It gave you a different sort of perspective. Possibly what the different classes may have been thinking. At one point of the tour there was a giant wall of ice and you got to feel it, just to see what they may have been going through. Just a little taste of a night of terror. You were given a name on your "boarding pass" and at the end of the tour you checked the wall of list of "Survivors" or the other list, the larger list of the deceased. My sister and I both were on the latter. It was an experience I will never forget. I urge everyone to go.

Being Jane Austen

Being Jane Austen, the modern day Keira Knightley classic is on E! right now and I can't help but think, why was it so easy back then? I think it's so much harder now. At least for me, mainly because I'm stuck in this house. I mean really stuck....It stucks. ano one will hire me because, my last experience is...sitting home...not my fault. I was made to sit at home by my sister. But at least this movie is on. I read the book years ago. It was really good. Here's something weird that happened to me today, i logged on to my computer and Bill's name was on MSN, Then Michael Damian's was on another, weird.... Strange. I haven't seen either one of them in such a long time.