Retirement from Golden Eagle/Liberty..

This is weird. Everytime I go to Costco, I run into someone I used to work with at Golden Eagle/ Liberty Mutual and they pretend not to know who I am. I worked there for almost 20 years, and I was like really popular. Not in a snobby way, but everyone knew who I was. I was everyone's friend. From the Claim's Examiner's, the Accounting Department and tht I e mailroom too. I loved all of my friends. They were the greatest. I have some of them on my facebook friends still. I wish I was still there. I really do.But to think that I can't remember what you look like, Stuart N. and it was Kim j., or another claims manager I ran into last month is an insult; please. Just because I'm sitting on my ass most of the time doesn't mean I can't remember what people looked like. I know people want me out of this house, but give me a job so I can get some cash together to get a place. Seriously, do they think I have any money? I have about $20. Maybe. What's that gonna get me? Not even a tank of gas. And I like Sabre Springs. So really I'm looking up a dead horses ass. Last time I checked my funds I get a whopping $400 a month from my retirement., where would I spend it first? Hum....I could buy that tank of gas, and maybe get the dog her medicine and mine, go to the neuro, then what's left, to the movies, get some popcorn, settle in, couple packs of gum, and go home, and I'm out of cash for the month. That's called broke. How do people live on $400? That's why people panhandle. And I have two degrees, wasted degrees. A bachelor's and a Masters. What a waste of time. No one will hire me, and I just wasted my time, because they said it was guaranteed to get me a job. Right....Not ONE JOB!!! NOT ONE!!!! I've been rotting in this house, for ten years. doing the Cinderella bit, and I'm not good at it. I  resent it. And I get told how nice they are to me. That's why I beg anyone PLEASE GIVE ME A JOB, I will work my ass off for you. Just let me leave this place. The day is coming, and you will regret it.